lace and leaves

spent some time on the other side of town today. (the more shee shee {sp?} side.) found a few cheap cheap cute clothes at goodwill. and then window-shopped a bit. the above pretty dress i spied at flicka, a swedish store. stores over on fillmore are out of my unemployed price range. (actually they were out of my employed price range as well.)

friday i'm going to try kickboxing with mati (a seasoned kickboxer ;-)) and then in the evening i'm going to her art opening. exciting! check it out if you're in sf.

i had been thinking i want to try some kickboxing or martial art or self defense. something to get in touch with my anger. (i know it's in there.) and to move my body in new ways. not to get too new-agey, but that mind-body connection needs some activation. i think i'm heading for some biggish changes and i'm hoping some yelling and/or tae kwon do action will give me some (much needed) confidence.

i see how kids with siblings (and especially boys or tomboys) test their physical limits so much more than i ever did as an only child. they tumble and tug and hurl themselves about and at each other, ride skateboards and break their bones and get up again and again. my friend heather and i could most often be found playing dolls or stuffed animals or swimming in her pool. sounds placid, but our play certainly had its edge and wildness to it too. i remember one day her sister nichole and heather and i got ahold of some of those fat, squishy nerf bats. we ran madly around their laundry room, which was an island in their house (open on all sides), endlessly chasing each other and bonking one another on the head with those bats. we were fast, frenzied, violent and laughing hysterically throughout.

i also remember one night during college, my friends mia and oona and i decided to wrestle/tumble on the lawn outside our dorms. of course it was more silly/fun than seriously rough, but even that level of roughness and physicality (heightened by the damp grass and our inability to see well in the dark), was initially so foreign to me.

it's odd how i feel more and more detached these days from my body, spending the majority of most days sitting in front of the computer. i do walk around town a lot (and go dancing occasionally), but i'm definitely not getting enough of that frenzied, freeing, physically (and in turn mentally) challenging energy.

hm, from lace and leaves to kicking and tumbling...

floral fabric cards + flickr favorites

have some alliteration.

3 in a row

+ some flickr favorites:
grassy
long arms
in the light
golden
hair snuffles

little things

hearing laurel laugh on the phone as she tries to hold the phone while also holding her baby girl. her boy close by. always now when i talk with her on the phone, she is laughing while herding and responding to the little ones. so sweet to hear the joy in her voice over the madness of motherhood. she appreciates the humor of life's craziness. between the laughing, the phone keeps beeping in our ears, as laurel's cheek accidentally pushes the number buttons.

getting kim's cd mixes in the mail, one with a parental advisory for explicit lyrics. there i was toning down my mixes and one of the older (though clearly spicier) bloggers busts out the explicit lyrics. she reminds me not to care quite so much about what others will think and to be oneself.

picking up my requested books and cds at the library - they have great stuff for free. gifts for everyone.

listening to nick drake's sad, beautiful songs (cd from the library).

receiving emails from anya, a childhood friend, telling me a secret and sending old photos to make me laugh.

pinky leon cuddling up to me, resting his head on my arm. pinky leon being a cat.

my mom calling every day (even if she doesn't always say the right words).

reflections

i'm off (taking the train, which i am very excited about) to grass valley this weekend to visit a friend, and then to my parents' next week for i don't know how long. been going through some rough patches lately. it's odd how sometimes that leaves me feeling completely uncreative and other times it makes me want to make things. right now it's the latter. part of me doesn't want to go away this weekend because i think i'd get a whole lot of stuff made. (and i haven't made much for some time!) but i am looking forward to visiting with my friend and getting out of town and into the trees for a bit.

here are two SF windows for you.



if you click on this one, you can read a bit about it.

have a good weekend!

friday flickrs

seduced by colors and papers
by the view
by kim's old tulip
the softness of sand (and all his photos!)
light
pool dreams

lalala

stack of cds for the cd exchange. i am pretty happy with the design. unfortunately i think the glue i used is having a weird affect on the paper (making it kind of grey-black). this paper was probably not the best for printing.

the shelter cover is inspired by sean hayes' song, rosebush inside about moreese bickham.
the lyric on the animal cover is from slow pony home by the weepies.

insert is here and here.

and below is the first cd i've gotten from the exchange. very exciting, and sarah's mixes are great!